I have a to-do list which I have yet to fulfill

Tomorrow is my o level prac, which i know, who cares, nobody does lol.

But next week-next week is the official start of my o level written papers.
My best friend reckons I don't have a reason to be worried at all,since I have a place in a poly already and all.In fact, everyone thinks that. Sigh. It doesn't go that way; earning a place still means I have to deserve my spot and prove that I want this enough to work hard, or even harder.

I am not a hard worker, I can tell you that. But I know enough to know that in these few days, it can mean my life will change. Everything is in my hands, only I can do this, with Allah's help.

I am so very grateful to Mr Tan w.b for not giving up on me once. We built a good rapport last year because I was in the school's netball team and all, and he'd ask me how our matches went (also because his wife is the Netball coach of North Vista's team, and used to be team-mates with my netball teacher)
I can tell you that for the two years that i've been taking physics, I have never passed. It was almost always an F9 or E8. Even when I dropped from Pure to Combined, I didn't improve much. The best I got was D7 for my prelim one this year. For my second prelim, I plunged two grades to a stupid, horrible F9. I was back to square one. I was the lowest in class whereas everybody else improved. Mr Tan indirectly hinted that "there are certain people who I think I cannot help anymore." I knew it was me.

But he talked to me. He said, " I'm not giving up on you, iiman. I have every believe that you have the potential to do so much better.Increase your intensity this time."
I did. For my mock paper 2,i got a B3. And it was a past year o level  paper. Can you believe it? I still can't.From an F9 to a B3. Because Mr Tan didn't give up on me.

Yesterday after my physics remedial in the morning, I was studying in the canteen with Afiqah. MrTan was going home in his car. When he drove past us, he rolled down the window, pointed to me and called out that I had improved tremendously. I couldn't stop smiling. He will probably be one of the few reasons I will come back to this  school as alumni.