Don't tell me if you can or cannot. Tell me whether you Want to or not.

I am a disappointment to myself and the people around me. For instance, my Mother Tongue results.While everyone else got a B something,even an A (Zah,Fuzzy) I was  the only one stuck at the bottom with a friggin C. Cancel that! I wasn't even stuck at the  bottom-I was hovering between a B3 and a B4 and then I sunk to a C5. Am I upset. So very upset.
I suppose I was complacent, or just illogical in my writing. I mean come on, the e-mail required problems caused by teenagers in the estate and I gave some bullshit problem that the teenagers burned some stuff and used my clothes to  put out the fire.
Looking back, that was such a stupid problem!

In some ways I am glad everyone else was preoccupied in their scores and tearing and wailing and wallowing in self pity. So none of them would look straight in my eyes and know how embarrassed I felt. Save for Dannia,who gave me  an incredulous look when I told her my score. She didn't believe it. She went to check my score again, and when she came back,she stood right across me, stared at me for a while,before pulling me into a great big hug. It took me all I had to not cry.

I mean, Dannia? Of all people? The coldest,most non- touchy, tomboy-ish person gave me a hug. I will never forget that small yet significant act.

So I guess I'm retaking. The worst feeling is having disappointed my parents and my teacher. Now every time I see Cikgu Janisah I avert my gaze and look down,avoiding her, because I am so,so ashamed.
Learn from my mistakes. I may not be up to that standard to get a distinction,but I MUST get a B now. No more stupid sounding situations.I have to do this.

Okay,on to good news:) While that hype happened just last Friday,something wonderful happened on the same day and omggg I am too excited I cannot contain my excitement-

I HAVE A GUARANTEED PLACE IN REPUBLIC POLYTECHNIC!!!

Alhamdulillah!

That means I don't have to do too exceptionally well-I have to obtain an aggregate of not more than 26 points, get better that B4 in English, and PASS MY FRIGGIN MATHS.I can I can I can do this.


Oh yeah some big head in my class,the hypocrite and whatever I ranted about 2 posts ago had to go say something like,"huhhh??? RP?RP???" I just kept  quiet while Tamara defended me<3 but yeah, uuurrrghh he is the MAIN reason I hate my class you know,seriously/
I'll be the big fish in the small pond, mark my words you carrot head



Aaaaaand... Hafeezhah got into Temasek Polytechnic! So Subhanallah it has been double berkat for her, an A1 in malay and a place in Law&Management in Temasek poly. Gosh,already I am SO proud for her,imagine how her parents must feel!