I am a disappointment to myself and the people around me. For instance, my Mother Tongue results.While everyone else got a B something,even an A (Zah,Fuzzy) I was the only one stuck at the bottom with a friggin C. Cancel that! I wasn't even stuck at the bottom-I was hovering between a B3 and a B4 and then I sunk to a C5. Am I upset. So very upset.
I suppose I was complacent, or just illogical in my writing. I mean come on, the e-mail required problems caused by teenagers in the estate and I gave some bullshit problem that the teenagers burned some stuff and used my clothes to put out the fire.
Looking back, that was such a stupid problem!
In some ways I am glad everyone else was preoccupied in their scores and tearing and wailing and wallowing in self pity. So none of them would look straight in my eyes and know how embarrassed I felt. Save for Dannia,who gave me an incredulous look when I told her my score. She didn't believe it. She went to check my score again, and when she came back,she stood right across me, stared at me for a while,before pulling me into a great big hug. It took me all I had to not cry.
I mean, Dannia? Of all people? The coldest,most non- touchy, tomboy-ish person gave me a hug. I will never forget that small yet significant act.
So I guess I'm retaking. The worst feeling is having disappointed my parents and my teacher. Now every time I see Cikgu Janisah I avert my gaze and look down,avoiding her, because I am so,so ashamed.
Learn from my mistakes. I may not be up to that standard to get a distinction,but I MUST get a B now. No more stupid sounding situations.I have to do this.
Okay,on to good news:) While that hype happened just last Friday,something wonderful happened on the same day and omggg I am too excited I cannot contain my excitement-
I HAVE A GUARANTEED PLACE IN REPUBLIC POLYTECHNIC!!!
Alhamdulillah!
That means I don't have to do too exceptionally well-I have to obtain an aggregate of not more than 26 points, get better that B4 in English, and PASS MY FRIGGIN MATHS.I can I can I can do this.
Oh yeah some big head in my class,the hypocrite and whatever I ranted about 2 posts ago had to go say something like,"huhhh??? RP?RP???" I just kept quiet while Tamara defended me<3 but yeah, uuurrrghh he is the MAIN reason I hate my class you know,seriously/
I'll be the big fish in the small pond, mark my words you carrot head
Aaaaaand... Hafeezhah got into Temasek Polytechnic! So Subhanallah it has been double berkat for her, an A1 in malay and a place in Law&Management in Temasek poly. Gosh,already I am SO proud for her,imagine how her parents must feel!
Tuesday, August 21, 2012
Wednesday, August 8, 2012
Yes,and I was so caught up in writing something that's nigging my mind that I didn't think to put something a little light hearted.
Ok, STILL about the class t shirt, I was upset because everyone was expected to chalk up 22 friggin bucks!for a T-shirt! That we'll probably only wear ONCE!
Forgive me if I sound cheap and whiny, but I promise,I am not. I just think it's stupid and blah blah,I;ve already said that.
Yeah I mean all the wealthy ones in my class can afford a 22 dollar shirt,but i' can't okay!And they had to make it compulsory
Afiqah was thoroughly upset as well, because she's saving up for something important, but nevertheless...sigh. I hate my class.
To prove our point,we changed a few of our dollars into coins.Like the really small coins: ten cent coins and five cent coins. Too bad one cent coins don't harbor value anymore,save for staring at.
I told the person collecting that i could only afford ten bucks this week,and then made sure to take great pains to count out five cent coins and ten cent coins on her table just to add up the sum, while she looked on.
I was worried at first,because the whole class had witnessed her yelling at my classmate for not bringing his wallet, but she's filthy rich and can have laser hair removal what, so she can help me pay first right okbro.
I told her I'd pay the remaining 12 bucks next week,and she just smiled. But I knew inside she was probably like," BITCH! BIIIIITCHHH!"
And plus a lot of people didn't pay...? So yeah,you see lah make it compulsory some more ah.
And as for Afiqah,she had to keep recounting her coins,so she ended up spilling all the coins out on the table and having to scoop them up again and count them all over, hahahahah!!!
In your faise class-tshirt-compulsory-makers.
Let's see if you'll wear it to prom night.Guess not. Thought so.
Ok, STILL about the class t shirt, I was upset because everyone was expected to chalk up 22 friggin bucks!for a T-shirt! That we'll probably only wear ONCE!
Forgive me if I sound cheap and whiny, but I promise,I am not. I just think it's stupid and blah blah,I;ve already said that.
Yeah I mean all the wealthy ones in my class can afford a 22 dollar shirt,but i' can't okay!And they had to make it compulsory
Afiqah was thoroughly upset as well, because she's saving up for something important, but nevertheless...sigh. I hate my class.
To prove our point,we changed a few of our dollars into coins.Like the really small coins: ten cent coins and five cent coins. Too bad one cent coins don't harbor value anymore,save for staring at.
I told the person collecting that i could only afford ten bucks this week,and then made sure to take great pains to count out five cent coins and ten cent coins on her table just to add up the sum, while she looked on.
I was worried at first,because the whole class had witnessed her yelling at my classmate for not bringing his wallet, but she's filthy rich and can have laser hair removal what, so she can help me pay first right okbro.
I told her I'd pay the remaining 12 bucks next week,and she just smiled. But I knew inside she was probably like," BITCH! BIIIIITCHHH!"
And plus a lot of people didn't pay...? So yeah,you see lah make it compulsory some more ah.
And as for Afiqah,she had to keep recounting her coins,so she ended up spilling all the coins out on the table and having to scoop them up again and count them all over, hahahahah!!!
In your faise class-tshirt-compulsory-makers.
Let's see if you'll wear it to prom night.Guess not. Thought so.
Sick,
In that sense where I'm fed-up with all the hypocrisy going on in my class.
Sick,in that sense where everybody looks on, or away, when one person-alone- is picked on.
Sick,that I don't do anything about it for fear of being an outcast.
I'm fuming because someone made the class tee compulsory to buy. Bigdeal? Perhaps not to you,but to me it signifies a whole lot of ridiculousness:
Somebody talked about having a class tee last year,somebody saw how left out we were as the only class which didn't have anything to wear except for our p.e shirts and uniforms. Somebody designed a normal class t-shirt when we're going to graduate in 2 months time. Seen the ridiculousness of it? No? Then what about this-
Somebody made the pathetic excuse that having a class tee would bond us a class.This is the ultimate bull of all. Bond? Can you be more serious?(not) So what,making a class tshirt will bond us as a class? A mere piece of cloth on our backs,is that truly enough to "bond" us? You shit,do you honestly think that more than a year of hypocrisy and glares and leaving people out,picking on ONE person will be erased,forgotten, BY A MERE T-SHIRT?
Stupid,so stupid beyond anything.
And then somebody charges us a bomb for it,and dares anyone to go against the design. You and your group of friends,with that delusional notion of yours that you are better than every being in the class-makes me want to vomit. You lack moral values,respect for a fellow being
.
Of all people,you should know better. I hope this person that you pick on proves to become more succesful than you in the future. I hope your sheer arrogance comes right up and slucchs you right up.
I hope you and your only friends are the only one who turns up for prom,with all your fellow,guffawing,arrogant cronies and finally see for yourself how isolated you truly are.
Stop lying to yourself,and stop lying to make face and bonus points in front of the teachers. I hope you see how stupid you make the class look-imagine getting a class tee two months before we are due to graduate- and you take the blame for it.
Sick,in that sense where everybody looks on, or away, when one person-alone- is picked on.
Sick,that I don't do anything about it for fear of being an outcast.
I'm fuming because someone made the class tee compulsory to buy. Bigdeal? Perhaps not to you,but to me it signifies a whole lot of ridiculousness:
Somebody talked about having a class tee last year,somebody saw how left out we were as the only class which didn't have anything to wear except for our p.e shirts and uniforms. Somebody designed a normal class t-shirt when we're going to graduate in 2 months time. Seen the ridiculousness of it? No? Then what about this-
Somebody made the pathetic excuse that having a class tee would bond us a class.This is the ultimate bull of all. Bond? Can you be more serious?(not) So what,making a class tshirt will bond us as a class? A mere piece of cloth on our backs,is that truly enough to "bond" us? You shit,do you honestly think that more than a year of hypocrisy and glares and leaving people out,picking on ONE person will be erased,forgotten, BY A MERE T-SHIRT?
Stupid,so stupid beyond anything.
And then somebody charges us a bomb for it,and dares anyone to go against the design. You and your group of friends,with that delusional notion of yours that you are better than every being in the class-makes me want to vomit. You lack moral values,respect for a fellow being
.
Of all people,you should know better. I hope this person that you pick on proves to become more succesful than you in the future. I hope your sheer arrogance comes right up and slucchs you right up.
I hope you and your only friends are the only one who turns up for prom,with all your fellow,guffawing,arrogant cronies and finally see for yourself how isolated you truly are.
Stop lying to yourself,and stop lying to make face and bonus points in front of the teachers. I hope you see how stupid you make the class look-imagine getting a class tee two months before we are due to graduate- and you take the blame for it.
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