Exploring the "feel" of Ramadhan

The muslims who fast will say that the moment Ramadhan comes round,they have found a sort of 'inner peace' within themselves.
I don't want to get shot or hound down for saying this,but I  was just wondering if having people telling you over and over how peaceful and beautiful Ramdhan is has a sort of thearapeutic effect on a practising muslim.I was thinking, 'The Placebo' effect, like maybe you are so convinced about the beautiful peaceful feel that you truly believe.

And I'm not saying I'm not believing,I was just wondering,because I've seen so many tweets and facebook posts about this feel of Ramadhan.

I mean,I feel it too.It's a great feeling-you submit yourself  to Allah and you're constantly reminded to watch your actions and attitude.You are less distracted. Well at least I am.
For instance,today was pretty productive.
I studied for about an hour and a half straight after sahur.(ok,nevermind that I slept after that and was late for tuition)
And I took a twenty minute to boost myself. By the way three hour naps while fasting just to beat the hunger pangs are a huge no-no.

And I actually studiedso hard ok

aha ahah iftar coming seeya

WHY FRIGGIN WHY

No calls, no texts,no e- mails.
Already four of my classmates who applied for DPA have been called down for an interview.
When will it be my turn?Will they even consider me?

I'm not going to make it,am I?

what

I know maybe I'm not one to judge blahblah but
 it irks me sometimes when tudung-ladies or okayyy,the more glamorous term-Hijab clad women-
 go out wearing tights
Maybe if you're skinny it's okay? Maybe not? But seriously,the concept isn't to just cover- the concept is to COVER.
And yes I know,given the modern times we want to keep up with the West and what, "muslimify" the western clothes ksjschfsd.kcjvjckdn but yeah.Tights don't  go with scarves.Neither do painted on jeans.
Another thing is this couple thing?

I mean do I actually have to explain myself.Women in scarves/hijabs with boyfriends and holding hands and smoking.

So what is that hijab doing sitting on your head? Perhaps It's a fashion accessory.Oh ignore the fact that the fundamental use of the hijab is to protect you  from uncivil acts etc

To sum it up,its like wearing oven mitts to protect you from getting burnt,then putting your hand in a fire anyway.

MY TAKE!

Just my opinion okayyyyyyyy anyway to talk about (bleah) school related stuff, I know two people who have been called down for an interview via DPA. Hafeezhah,who else.But she deserves it anyway.
What if I don't get in? And why do I have this nigging feeling that Republic Poly will ask?
Lolololo prasan-ness. I need to get a call OR an e-mail.I need to get this.

I have my prelim results back (oh joy). At least I passed.25 points is pass right? :B

Bodohness

Lalalalalala

So today A.K was asking the class who applied for DPA. And although I know FRANKLY QUITE  A FEW DID,  no one raised their hands. So then he kinda shrugged and said, "go in based on results,don't need to talk so much"

WAHLAUU

So then Zah looked at me,and we were wagging eyebrows at each other. Obviously we were thinking the same thing- we are soooooo not asking him for a testimonial.
If only Ms Chia were still here.I miss her so much :'(

Why am I wasting time doing this

I have gotten most of my results yadayadayada everyone's talking about oh how bad they were blah blah so I'm gonna skip that shit.

I can't sketch quadratic graphs and every time I ask someone for help no one seems willing.And the questions always change and how the hell is completing a square going to eliminate world hunger.
I'm looking up youtube videos and most of the time I'm laughing at the different accents so actually I'm not going anywhere, not doing anything

I can't wait to go to poly,or at least I hope I get into poly because then I'm just going to do what I love for three friggin years.

I also applied for DPA (hell,like anyone cares) and I applied for mass communications in Republic,Temasek and Ngee Ann.
I was just trying okaaaaaaaayyy.I know Ngee Ann is super duper competitive and  practically everyone wants to go there-horrors I;m getting mainstream now-

Blah blah blah

Today I did nothing except stuff and thinking about things and certain people I really shouldn't be thinking about

Some days I just want to stay on and never get off

I took a nearly long bus ride today.It was great,I sat up front like some little kid on the top deck and felt the ice cold wind blasting from the air-con vents.I loved it.I should do it more often.

Of course the whole feeling feeling shiok sendiri moment was spoilt when some kids sat behind me and started chatting about angry birds. I.Don't.Like.That

But then back to me,(because I'm selfish that way).I started thinking how maybe I probably wouldn't get to enjoy this anymore,especially when I've finished my O's and I know I've screwed up.
I can't screw up.But  know I probably will anyway.

You know sometimes, when you take long journeys like these,you shouldn't think it's an absolute bore,and start taking out your phones to text your friends or listen to music or whatever.
You should look around.Life's more fun that way.People don't realise that. Watch that old lady down the path adjusting her wedgie.Laugh at that young couple arguing.Scoff at some big school boy making his maid carry his loaded school bag for him.Think about what they're talking about,because you can't hear them.
 For those few moments,someone else's lives come alive to you.
You're no longer cooped up in that tragic,hollow shell of yours. All because you care to observe.

And that is why I love long bus rides.Sometimes I never want to get off.