Dedicated to my DPA mates.

Well before I begin, I just wanna say that you guys are an amazing bunch. It's like we're all fragments from different broken porcelain bowls, glued and joined together clumsily with runny, gooey love with a heavy coat of wackiness and all kinds of other happy magic to fill up the cracks <3
oh and I'm sorry if you all don't like to read long posts, I'm really really sorry about that, it's just that all these are written straight from my heart so yeah

In Alphabetical order:

Alex-At first I thought you were malay(do you sense this awkward silence) and you were in the same group as me in the first ever project that we had. You're actually pretty decent and reliable but sometimes when I look at you I can never tell what you're thinking HAHAHAHA. You're good at encouraging and you have this blur-but-decent face and it's always nice to see you smile. I'm sorry I can't write much about you because I never actually had a proper conversation with you, but keep in mind that it was a pleasure meeting you and I hope you're adjusting well in school.. Hope to see you around :)


Angela- You're just this awfully quiet and sweet girl, having this mindset to work hard and put in effort in the things you do. I didn't actually hang out with you much nor had the chance to have a proper conversation with you, save for the time when we slept in the same tent during Project Voyager. It was great seeing you open up a little more towards the end of Project Communicate when initially I know it was hard for you to speak out loud. I hope you're able to make friends now that school has officially started, and I do hope to see you around more. Do take care,and much love :)


Ashraf-  Eh alamak why must it be you next HAHAHAHAHHA KIDDING. To start of, I think you're really pretty darn dandy. The first week of school I thought you were this  emo tumblr boy always sitting around looking cool...ok sorry my first impressions of people are always rubbish (or are they....?) It will forever be a mystery to me how you have this penchant for wearing your dad's clothes hahahaha ok I'm kidding again. But really, seriously now, I think you have this ability to take jokes and sarcasm  to  a whole new level and reply in even more bitch please sarcastic remarks so that makes you all the more fun. And if you've gotten weird questions on your Ask.fm then it was me : >
Bahhaha I remember when you sat opposite Subway and you unleashed the inner judgemental bitch in you by commenting on every single person who walked past...it was HILARIOUS but mean also so see you in hell ok no sorry I'm kidding again. But all in all it was really great knowing you, because you have this genuine "I'm cool with anything" vibe and you seem pretty deeply perspective at times. It's also really nice to talk to you and all, the way you go from concerned to insanely nonsensical but still nice. Hope to see you around more :) P.s my friend Sabrina said you're an ass and I said yep you're an ass, but you're a nice ass.


Atiqah- I hope you don't kill me for saying this but I honestly thought you were some kind of fierce hipster minah minus the kening highways. At first I always had this feeling that you'd pull of my tudung or something whenever you stood close to me, but you turned out to be such a sweetheart. I liked you immediately when I found out you like Meg&Dia too, and then after that I liked you even more when you showed this really caring attitude to everything and everyone. When you laugh it sounds like tiny bells tinkling in the wind  AND IF Y'ALL  ARE READING THIS THIS IS NOT A SICK LOVE POEM OK EXCUSE MOI FOR THE CORNINESS. Anyway, you always seem calm in any situation, and I admire the fact that you seem to have this attitude of wanting to learn new things, so that's really pretty amazing. And I really like your hair- sometimes I wonder if I stick a pen in it, would it stay stuck or drop off but okkk lol I'm being nonsensical again. Also, whenever I think I see you in school, it's actually just your twin sister like tsk pls y'all can put name tags on your shirts or not  wait one day I'm probably gonna hug her thinking it's you then she will die of fright and embarrassment then you know. Love you heaps <3


Chelcy- Wow, the first day of school I honestly though you were this damn pretty malay girl but you turned out to be chinese omg cheat my feelings!!! I love love how you're so outspoken and you don't much care what people think of you. I never actually got to thank you enough for the advice you gave me on the last day of RPPP. So thank you so so so so much for that <3 I love the way you dress la please and I love your hair like you just jumped straight out of a Dove Shampoo advertisement, so straight and long and thick. Everytime I see you, you're practically always saying, "Aiya don't care one lah, anyhow one lah" HAHAHAHAH  YOU'RE DAMN FUNNY YOU KNOW THAT? I'm glad we were in the same class for Project Communicate, you were a pretty radical classmate <3


Danial-  If I'm not wrong you were one of the first ones who asked my name on the first day of school. I remember you being in the same group as me for the Amazing Race thingy on the first week of RPPP.It was great having you, because you worked hard and although quiet at first, you were encouraging and friendly and all.Also, you have this really goofy but extremely sincere smile, like every time  I see you, your face is like you're trying so hard not to laugh then you end up smiling really widely, and that's really nice :) In general, you're this super decent guy, very patient and kind to people (BUT SOMETIMES CAN BE ANNOYING AH WHO TAUGHT YOU ONE). During Project Communicate when you wanted to laugh at people in class it was damn funny ok. Sometimes you look awkward when you're with people then I feel like laughing at you because your face~ I really cannot tahan. It's also comforting to see you around school,like a familiar face and all (and you're always smiling goofily) hope all is well for you, presenting in front of a whole new class with totally different people so yeah, be confident and keep smiling :)

Dorcas-  You strike me as a rather logical, intelligent person filled with facts and smartness. I demand half of your brain. I'm jussssst kiddinggggg. Knowing you was really something. I remember for the first two weeks of RPPP we had those ice breaking games and you were in the same group as me and most of the time you'll be the one coming up with all these genius solutions to solve the problems. For Project Communicate, you were the one giving instructions in out group and your sense of authority really made the group and I feel like we had this covered.  You're good at these kinds of things and you're so lucky to be so smart. I also haven't seen you much around the school, and I do hope to soon enough. Much love <3

Elaine- Aiya Elaine, you and your hugs, so nice and warm and comfy and makes me feel loved. The first thing I remember about you was your damn cool dip-dyed hair. After that, I found that not only is your hair cool, everything about you is cool <3. You're warm and friendly and encouraging and you're crazy and hyper sometimes HAHAHAHAHA omg. You were really dynamic back during Project Headstart, as the king and all, so bold and confident and really good in general in giving instructions. Whenever I think of you, I hear you in my head going, "IIMAAAAAAANNNNN....." and please, I still don't get why you think I'm scary like please I'm not some evil old woman ok tsk pls. You know, the thing about you is that you have this genuine, honest way about you. You're just very encouraging and all and you always seem determined in whatever you do, so I really salute you for that. Thank you for being you. Love you loads <3

Esther-HAHAHAHAHAHAH YOU! The first week of school I really thought you were this super anti-social person, didn't want to mix around with people( a bit like me ah at first hahahahahaa) and then I remember you saying you didn't want to go for the hike or something because of your medical condition and you said," I scared I burden you all (sadfaise)" and the girls were all like, "NU NU WE CARRY U" HAHAHAHAHAH FUNNY SIA. You turned out to be this damn hilarious person on Twitter like you're so utterly random and I never fail to burst out laughing when I read your tweets because you're so unexpectedly funny, forever expressing your love and sexual preferences for musical instruments.Weirdness. Your talent in musical software is just....wow.  I remember how for Project Headstart you were the one coming up with all the sound effects and music which none of us knew how to do. And I loved working with you during Project Communicate, filming a YouTube video on your Mac and having loads of fun and encouragement from you. I hope you finally find your voice and reach that pitch you're looking for :) Love you tons <3

Faiezah- The first time I saw you I thought you were this smart alec looking girl because of your thick black glasses. I seriously thought you looked like those fierce "Don't mess with me I tell you first" kind of person. (My first impression of people is seriously nonsense omg really.) I also thought you were chinese + ang moh mixed but you turned out to be malay lololol. Tbh I had this girl crush on you the first week of school because you were like the prettiest girl I've ever seen in my life and you didn't even realize it. BUT I'M NOT LESBO HOR PLS HOR INI SEMUA NORMAL. You actually turned out to be an amazing friend-quiet yet very annoying, and you have this sort of sisterly, responsible vibe about you which I felt when we had that hike at Bukit Timah. You're really someone who can be counted on and I especially respect the huge amount of talent you have in playing soccer. You're one of the people I  hung out with most in school during RPPP and I relish those quiet moments we had, just sitting or standing or walking or eating together without having the need to speak much. I actually really do miss hanging out with you, and I hope we see each other more often in school. All the best of luck in everything that you do, love you so much <3


Faiz- When I first saw you I thought you were some chinese dude with a creepy face like forever with that pervertic grin. UNTIL NOW YOU HAVE THAT FACE HAHAHHAHAHAH ok sorry :L Jokes aside, I find that you really posses an awesome personality. One of the things that makes you so admirable is the way you always seem to push yourself beyond your personal boundaries, and that's just really inspiring. Another thing about you is how you always motivate everyone in a positive manner, especially during Project Voyager when you were helping everyone with the belaying and giving all these words of encouragement to everyone, so I'll never forget that. I know we really annoy each other sometimes, like really really super irritating  max but oh well. I want you to know that I'm always just kidding around when I pretend to ignore  you and all, but I really don't mean to be mean  :) You've really been one of the people bringing everyone in RPPP together what with your loudness and all, but take note that your outstanding character and motivation has been much appreciated and really does inspire me :) Thank you so very, very much for that. I do hope to see you around more alright :)


Fazila- On the first day of school I was excited because you were this other tudung woman ;;;;) You turned out to be super friendly, always smiling and spazzing over cats omg so cute. DO YOU KNOW THAT YOU ARE SO CUTE THAT I SOMETIMES FEEL LIKE STUFFING YOU IN MY BAG AND CARRYING YOU AROUND!!!! I think we got to know each other more during Project Headstart and we talked about other things and stuff hahahhahahaha I cannot la the way you wear your tudung so adorable because when you laugh your tudung sort of closes in in the middle then your face suddenly looks so small HAHAHHAHAHAHA ok sorry. And someone called you this super funny term-"China Woman Pakai Tudung" (ok idk if you called it that yourself but it was so damn funny omg please hahahaha) And then you're so small and cute but your phone is like bigger than your face omggggg CANNOT TAHAN PLS. On a serious note, I know that things sometimes don't quite go well at home for you but I admire the way you appreciate it all and you try to exude this really happy and outgoing attitude in school, so I really look up to you for that. Thank you for the memories and I hope all goes well for you in the coming future, I really do miss you. Love you a lot <3


Ganesh- Wah Ganesh, our resident Hockey Player. I never actually saw you play, but I have every believe and absolutely no doubt at all that you are one kick-ass player. You were an amazing leader during Project Voyager, giving very clear, precise instructions and putting everyone else's needs before your own, asking about everyone's well being throughout the hikes. I really appreciate it. You are just simply terrific lah, to say the least, and thank you so much for all that you did :) Your talent in music is also exceptionally wonderful, that mix you did for all of us was just....omg mind blowing.  AND I ALSO HOPE YOU CONTINUE GETTING GOOD GRADES LIKE HOW DO YOU EVEN BALANCE HOCKEY AND SCHOOL GOOD LAH YOU.Keep doing your thing la ok, you rock :)


Haiqal-hahaha omg Haiqal at first I was so intimidated by you because you looked so fierce like "oi wanna fight ah see what see". But then, the moment you open your mouth to speak, AHAHAHHAHA LIKE LITTLE BOY SIA HAHHAHA. Your face fierce only but actually sometimes you're full of nonsense also ahaha. You really are a very good person, very  friendly easily smiley and smiley and smiley. Has anyone told you that when you walk it's like you have this gangster "sweggy boy sweg sweg sweg" thing about you but hahhahaha omg funny~. I remember you being one of the brothers acting during Project Headstart and during the process of brainstorming you were full of merepekness but still very enthusiastic, which is cool. I really wish you the best in your course and modules and just intimidate your classmates with your gangster look, go je don't scared. See you around :) [P.S badass bwo]

Hamzah- What can I say, you are like our big brother to us all. At first I thought your voice damn funny HHAHAHHA but eventually I came to terms to find out that you really are funny in general. I remember you being in the first ever group that I was in and you really clicked with Rusydi and Sufian and Stanley and you guys together were like One Direction minus the Direction and the One hahhaha ok idek what I'm saying.Anyway, you are just so damn funny but you do have a serious side to you which I totally respect. You give the impression of someone who would do something once, and do it right, and place strong emphasis on it. I just really admire the way you're always asking about how everyone else is and motivating everyone, making them all feel good, and that really is fantastic of you. You really are that bond that brings us together and thank you for all you have done :) P.s No I'm not going to settle down and stop making silly faces

Han Yang- You're this little ball of  (LOOK fierce ONLY) yet kind. I only really noticed you because you had these really stupid and funny accents that you did during Project Headstart, like the China man HAHAHAHA BRO YOU REALLY NEED TO TEACH ME  LA BRO HAHAHAHA. I thought you acted pretty well during the performance thingy by the way :))) The thing about you is that you have this pleasant, very nice laugh and smile. You'll be quiet at times but I remember giving you this stupid face and you surprised me with your laughter. Btw, your tweets are sometimes so damn funny OMGGGGGGGGG!!!! Overall, it was so extremely nice meeting someone like you and I only saw you once in school when it officially started and I really really do do do hope to see you around a whole lot more :)

Heng Wei- The first time I met you I couldn't even pronounce your name right! But that aside, you're this really really really nice and gentle guy with a blur face that adds to the charm. You're so funny! Sometimes you'd say these really weird random stuff and I can never tell whether you're joking or not, like that time you wrote "Broom" and you said, "Is this how you spell broom?" and I couldn't stop laughing hahahha omgg seriously. I remember during Project Communicate you were the one always buying candy and offering them to people and you also used it as incentives to get people to be interviewed HAHAHAH. Anyway, it's nice to see you around school   because of that familiarity about you that I can't quite place. (oh btw the guy that sat beside you for FOP is my eyecandy but don't tell him).It was great meeting someone as easy going as you and I hope you're able to cope with school and all. See you :)


Jared- When I saw you at first I thought you were Tintin in real life,like with your hair and small eyes and everything HAHAHAHHAH. Then when you told us you swim I was like, "woah respect bro". You were a really selfless leader during Project Voyager, stopping to ask how everyone was feeling, cooking beyond delicious camp food like MMDAP OK MMMDAP NICE. And I remember when we were walking back to the campsite exhausted and tired but you really tried to keep our spirits up by playing games, NATURAL LEADER SEH JARED. By the way, you made a really beautiful queen during Project Headstart, and you were so proud to flaunt your assets, I think deep inside you enjoy running around wearing a wig and make up and a short dress righhhhhhhht... And also, just in case you accidentally walk into the girl's toilet again, pretend you're a queen hehheheheh. Anyway, see you around :)

Jessyln- Heya Jessy with your obsession over your idols ;;;)  I remember one of the projects you told me that you wanted to know me a little more and a little more you have learnt about me you have (idek if this makes sense omg) ANYWAYZZZ, you have this pleasant thing about you which I can't quite place. I really liked working with you during Project Communicate, like you had all these cool ideas and you were very conscientious in your work. I also think that you have an ah-mazing voice, like can you totally sing girrllll!! It was great knowing you because you have this thing about you that's really funny, and the only regret I have about meeting you is not getting to know you more. Keep smiling, and I hope to see you around because I haven't actually seen you around school lately. Much love <3

Jun Jie- I thought you were this other Sherman when you walked in that one time, late. You turned out to be this cool guy with a mostly decent personality and sometimes it's nice talking to you although we haven't spoken that much except for that Amazing Race thingy hehehehe. It's funny how you're so damn frank at times and just totally funny in general. I'm sorry I can't write much about you, but you were someone RPPP couldn't have been the same without. See you around :) (P.s I like your hair colour)

Kang Jin- So...you're the banana guy. I thought you were this emo ah beng at first but turns out, you're not! I remember being in the same group as you for the first ever project and we had to do that stupid blindfold thing outdoors and I couldn't even pronounce your name correctly hehehehe. I had the impression that you'd be loud and shout around a lot, but you're actually pretty quiet, but nice to talk to. And funny also! Especially when you told me about this retarded guy in your course HAHAHAHA. You were really good during Project Headstart, like how you tried to knock off the Witches' hat HAHHAHAHA. You're really nice lah okay, I haven't seen you around much, how can like this D: So see you around ok :)

Kar En- Sigh Karen you Jennifer Lawrence spazzer. When I first saw your name on the list I seriously thought it was Karen and when you introduced yourself I was like,"Omg this girl can't even pronounce her own name properly." mwehehehe. And do you know that I was terribly afraid of you at first?? You were like this foul mouthed four letter word spewing machine, always openly expressing your dislike towards certain  things. I mean it was scary, but when I think back, it was actually pretty funny.  You turned out to be a sweetie pie underneath your badass fierce exterior, like you have this genuine, caring attitude about you that is just super comfortable. You seem to be an oldie at heart and you have this constant enquiring being about you. It's great just talking about things with you AND YOU'RE SO DAMN HILARIOUS I DON'T KNOW WHY BUT YOU'RE SO FUNNY WHEN YOU GO HEHEHEH. You're one of the people that have made my experience in RPPP so darn memorable, maybe because I hung out more with you and the girls, so every time RPPP comes into mind, you're one of the first people to pop in my head. I love how you know just exactly when to be all out bitchy and annoying and then soft and kind, and oh my god, do I miss you so much. I somehow have this feeling that you'll go very far in the future, conquer the beaten tracks and explore the world, quenching that never ending thirst of yours to find out new things. I wish you all the very very best, and I love you <3

Levina- Lev, you're this bubble of happiness and smiles and you go around hugging people and it's really nice of you. At first I though you were filipino or something hahahahaha but ok no. You're like this rainbow on the cloudiest of days and I swear you're always smiling and laughing and you don't seem to dwell on the negativity of life and stuff like that, which is great! You always seem to be prancing around because you are cute like that you know. Anyone who is in the same class as you is sooooo lucky because  it's like you'll cut them a  slice of your rainbow happiness and share it and make them smile and laugh.
I could go on and on about how you bring about happiness everywhere you go. I hope you #gojedon'tscared for your singing because i really really want to hear you sing again!!!!!! You'll go far in life  with your positive attitude, and I'm sure you're bound to make someone's day every single day without even knowing it. Thank you for the memories, tons of love <3



Mo-Ohhhhhh, Mo. I'm sure we all got tricked into thinking you were a boy at first, and damn girl you had me fooled. From the very beginning, whether boy or a girl or not, I had this strong intuition that you were someone with an outstanding character....and I was right. You have this true, deep, honest sincerity about you and I feel like I can tell you something and you will just nod and smile and encourage from the bottom of your heart. Your laughter is just really amazing, and as I write this I'm laughing as well because I think  I can hear you cackling about something, somewhere. I want to tell you that it was nice having those occasional quiet moments together, a break from all the laughing and the stupid jokes and silly faces. You have this extremely understanding quality about you and you strive to comfort and to be there for anyone who needs company. I salute you for all your motivation and positiveness and thank you for the advice that you give, telling people to not give up. It's amazing how you put family before anything else, and I can see the love shining in your eyes whenever you talk to me about your family, and that really touches me inside and out((in a non-pervertic way)). Every time I see you, you're always smiling that great big white smile of yours, and then you burst into a funny face and then you make fun of yourself, and the whole thing is just so hilarious. It's so damn rare to see you nowadays (except for that time when I saw you and seeing you reduced me to a sobbing sniffling wimp) so seriously I think if they ever make a Finding Nemo sequel it should be dedicated to you and renamed Finding Mo Mo. Anywayyy, I can't wait to go for the subsequent sports trials with you, and I must say, thank you very much for giving me all the encouragement that I needed to be brave enough to sign up for all these things outside my comfort zone. I really never will forget you and you truly have been a fantastic friend. Love you so very much <3

Poh Yi-  I remember you on the very very first day of RPPP and you were sitting on my left and were one of the first ones I said hi to in the beginning. I liked you immediately. You're this earnest, sweet little thing who always does the best  to your abilities. Your laughter is really adorable and anyway, it was great sharing a tent with you during Project Voyager. You were understanding and accommodating and I look up to you for the fact that you carried on trudging during the hike although you were carrying heavy loads like the tent. You are so so positive and it was great learning that you have this passion for photography....your photography skills are brilliant! I also loved working in the same group as you during Project Communicate because you always intend to do the best job you could ever do, and yeah, I learnt that from you. Other than that, you're kind, friendly and so so sweet, sweeter than sugar might I add ;;;) I mean every word that I say about you and I actually do hope to meet more people like you. It was great knowing you. Lots of love <3

Rebecca-aka Rebby Becky Becks Bte Beckham. I LOVE YOU LA SO MUCH. At first, my impression of you was this super scary cold girl, like I would be so afraid to talk to you, and whenever you talked to me or anyone else you would always sound so tired, then I was so afraid that you'll be so lethargic and easily irritated  that you might throw your phone at somebody or something like that (NO WONDER LAH YOUR PHONE SPOILT THAT TIME!!!). Besides that, I really salute you for going ahead and kayaking even though you have this fear of the sea which you told me later on. I was also very impressed that you had the guts to try the high elements and I never told you this, but it was seeing you doing it that gave me the strength to go ahead and try it for myself. You're a big inspiration to me-your bravery, independence and courage has got me admiring you so much, especially when you told me about your family. I was so awed at how you cope so well practically on your own and I foresee that your hard experiences will mold you into someone highly successful in the future. It's always great to talk to you and it was hilarious when we talked on the phone and we couldn't even talk properly about anything because the entire time we were just giggling over the smallest, stupidest things.  Take note that I do miss you and I do miss having you in the same class as me because I don't have anyone else to laugh  hysterically with and make stupid faces with across the room or just laugh over practically nothing.However, I must say that the best moments I spent with you were the ones when we didn't have much to say to each other but just appreciated  each other's presence. Continue to persevere  because I know the hardships have made you strong and you can keep going hard no matter how tired you are. I love you <3

Rusydi- The very first time I saw you I thought you were like this super well dressed dude in your neon  green shirt and white jeans ( like putri salat like that hehehehe). On the second day I remember you really trying to make friends, like you were sitting with some others and introducing yourself and then you also asked around for the other's names. I'm glad that I was in the very first group with you in the first project,and you were like this glue that held us together, tried to make us talk , made hilarious jokes, spazzing over Beautiful Creatures. Thank you so much for the cookies that you baked for us, and thank you so much for putting on a really positive and happy front, although you later  shared with us your rather sad and difficult past. I hope you continue to be the light and life to everyone you meet and don't take hate to heart because there are people out there who are simply jealous of how far you've come with your own hardwork and talent. I know it is exhausting to constantly look happy when you are hurting very badly inside, but I want you to know that I truly appreciate the effort you really put in to make somebody's day despite your own problems. Chin up :)



Sakinah- Sakinah I don't know if you'd read this but you were the first ever friend I made in DPA because you were a tudung lady like me :))) You played a good witch during Project Headstart and may I add that you have a very good voice :))) I'm sorry I didn't hang out with you much after some time, I hope all is good at home and with your new friends now that school has officially started. I really do hope that you're learning to adjust to the concept of group works in RP and that you're coping well. I haven't actually seen you around school, but if we do bump into each other, say hi :) Much love <3


Sharul-wassup la my bro, damn son in my shnizzie, flippin shet all up your grillz boi. HAHAHA.
Truth be told,when I first met you, I thought you were this tall giant and I didn't want to talk to you at first because I thought you were like fierce and loud but you turned out to be one of the most pleasant dudes I've ever met. I only got to know you more during Project Headstart, and you were so so so super funny and determined to do your very best and you are also heaps talented in acting may I add :) After Project Headstart I got to know that you're actually this giant with a heart of gold,always caring about others and making silly jokes and breaking out into silly dances, despite the fact that you yourself have problems of your own. You really do impress on me as someone who prioritizes friends and you try to do whatever you can to help them, so I am very proud that you have such an amazing personality. I want to thank you for being concerned and always asking me what's wrong every time I rant or express my anger or frustrations on twitter. Anyone who has your heart is a truly lucky and blessed soul *wink*wink* if you know what I mean *wink*wink*. KEEP  ON BEING FUNNY AND KIND OK :)))


Sherman- The first ever thing that I'll remember about you would be the fact that in the beginning someone had the idea of calling you "Abang Body" and it was really really funny. I never talked to you much, but I have to say, congratulations on coming this far as you once shared that your physical build never used to be like this. It only came through with maximum hard work and sheer determination. The one thing that really inspired me about you was the fact that you overcame your fear of heights during Project Voyager, where we all did the high elements. You straight out admitted that you were afraid of heights but then, though trembling and terrified you took the plunge. I'm not sure if you actually fully conquered you fear of heights, but it was truly admirable of you to take that step. It was nice knowing you. See you around :)

Shivanii- Wow, when I first saw you, I thought "omg this girl is one hell of a pretty indian" like dayum girl. I also remember you being in the first group of our first project and you really impressed upon as someone who had the ability to stand up and take charge of things. It was great just encouraging each other during the Bukit Timah hike and I appreciate it, truly. You also have this calm thing about you. I don't know if it's just because you're good at hiding feelings or what but in all seriousness, every time I see you, you're always with this calm smile of yours. And it's admirable how you seem to be able to withstand pressure; I always see you calm and collected, as if you know precisely what to do at the right time, like for instance being the Director  for our group during Project Headstart. You did a great job:) I hope all is well for you at home, and I do wish to see you more often. Until then, take care, and lots of love <3

Stanley- I was so scared of you at first! You were like this loud aggressive sounding guy and I was so scared until we partnered up in the first group and led each other through the blindfolded games then I found out that you have this amazingly dependent aura about you. I admire how you are so committed to muay thai and excelling in it, and the way you go on about how people should honor it more. It's cool how you look out for the food that I should eat, halal or not, so I appreciate your thoughtfulness :) It's really always nice to talk to you, you always seem to have these strong views about things and I love hearing your sincere opinions and short anecdotes about life and your passions. Besides that, you always seem to put others before you, and that's cool. It was simply fantastic meeting someone like you, someone with  a kind old soul set in a hardy body with an aggressive front. I wish you all the very best in everything that you are passionate in :)


Sufian- Looking for J0hoR GiRLs???  I remember you being in the first ever group that I was in and you were really this awfully nice person. The thing I want to thank you for is being encouraging throughout the hike at Bukit Timah. You were just going all out motivational and really kindly watching out for the rest of us and I still remember it, and I do appreciate it. Along the course of RPPP you developed your trademark "oppppp...!" which is horribly distinctive until now omg. It was really pleasant knowing you and although at times you have this pervertic grin like Faiz, your face is mostly really pleasant :)) I can't believe you still think that I live in Johor but hhahahaha I live in Johor yes no ok maybe I don't know. It's nice to see you being one of the familiar faces at the reel room at the end of the day, and I don't know but you do seem to be working hard, so I do wish you the very best of luck for all your lessons [and in finding that malaysian girl (((;;;] See you around!!! :)

Syafi'i- SYAFI'I!!! The first time I met you I knew immediately that you'd be a good person and until now, that judgement has never failed me. I think this is like one of those very rare moments that my first impression of someone is right, and a good impression it is :)I think that you clicked pretty easily with our first group for the first project with your extremely kind character.You have one of the most pleasant faces I have ever seen, and you're always smiling about something and sometimes you'll be shaking your head at what people say or do as if you can't believe your eyes or ears HAHAHAHAHAH SO CUTE.(Like that time when you found out that Mo is actually a girl BAHAHAHA your face I cannot tahan seriously). Anyway, thank you for being the greatest kayaking partner ever, really. You were very patient even though I was like blur and slow and stuff but you kept encouraging me and telling me to not give up, so thank you so very very very much for that. It may have been nothing to you, but it really meant a lot to me :')) OH AND SORRY I DIDN'T WANT TO CAPSIZE THE BOAT HAHAHA I'M REGRETTING IT NOW. I haven't actually seen you around school much, but I do hope to bump into you and I  hope all is well for you. Thank you again for everything :)


Syafiq- You're just another bond bringing us together in RPPP. I distinctively remember you making up these cheers for us to do at the facis for thanking them and stuff. You have this strong, determined spirit about you. And also.....why always emo on twitter. I can't say I know how you feel, never experiencing the same situation as you and I know nuts about cheering up, but do keep your head up, tilt it to the sky :)
I know you make the effort to put up a positive looking front but at times it takes a toll on you, we can all tell. Keep in mind that if two people are meant to be together, they'll find a way back to each other again but otherwise, God opens up the door for you to meet somebody else better because He has your best interests at heart. All in all, I just want to thank you for having an outstanding character, trying to bond us all together despite yourself. See you around and remember to smile :)


Syari-We all remember you as the boy going around talking to people,asking for their names , which secondary school they were from, including asking them their hobbies and favourite colours etc. I want to thank you for the genuine, conscious effort you made to try and make everyone feel at ease with each other, and the way you'd reach out to the quiet ones so they wouldn't feel so left out. You gave me the impression of someone who had a really outgoing nature, very content with everything around you, and always looking for the good in people. I was shocked when you told me about your mother during Project Impressions and it deeply moved me how you were still so positive about things, although I know you really do miss her a lot. That day, I learnt from you that the happiest, most smiling people are usually the ones with the saddest, loneliest backgrounds. I wish to commend you for being so strong about it, and it really made me appreciate life more, as well as my loved ones. So thank you very much for that. You're doing amazing, and one day, everything will come through. Just remember that God gives his toughest battles to his strongest soldiers so hang in there. I wish you the very best :)


Wang- First impression: malay. Malay tahap max to the core but you turned out to be chinese ha ha ha. You were damn funny during Project Headstart as the old uncle with your walking stick HAHAHAHA YOU'RE A SERIOUSLY GOOD ACTOR.
By the way, I thank you very much for being considerate and understanding about my preferences and thinking about them beforehand. It is very much appreciated. In general, I think that you are this really kind person, so your upbringing must have been good. Anyway when I look at you I never know what you are thinking because you always seem to have the same expression hahahahaha. All in all, it was good knowing you and I am glad I met someone like you. Hope to see you around hor :)

Warren- I think everyone else's first impression on you would be of a tall skinny beatboxer with a cap and long hair. But me-HELL NO. I only remembered you at first because we were grouped in that small circle and there was a piece of fuzz floating around and all of a sudden you quipped-"What if that were some old person's pubic hair." omg really. But you turned out to be actually really nice and talented, like for Project Headstart when we were doing the recordings and you could play all these rythms because you learnt from ear, and that's actually pretty impressive. HOWEVER, you are also highly annoying like take spelling lessons from me ah pls how to spell irritating: w-a-r-r-e-n. But all in all you really are nice actually, witty and spontaneous and sarcastic so at least we weren't all fully dead, just half dead so that's ok. I hope you carry on practicing and win something even bigger next time for any other upcoming beatboxing competition, so all the best of luck in everything you do! :) [P.s if you're still growing out your hair like Paul Twohill he'll still always be the qt pai of the qt pais]


Yong Han- The first ever thing that I remember about you was that you had this meeaaaaaan mohawk and I thought you were some tailong ah beng or something oh goodness. Then when you said that you're in Culinary Operations I nearly couldn't believe it. AHAHAH sometimes you're really very funny, like your expressions are always  like "...." and then you always have this grin which I really don't know how to describe Bhahahaha. It was good working with you during Project Communicate, I'm sorry we never used that stapler thingy idea of yours for an invention, but it was a good idea. I hope you come up with new recipes and stuff and I wish you good luck in your quest to open up your very own restaurant abang comel hahahhaha. See you around :)


Zakiah- You're like this small beautifully gift-wrapped present filled to the brim with positiveness and kindness and concern to everyone who's ever met you. There is something about you that is very honest and truthful and when I look into your eyes I see genuine gentleness and compassion.Verily, you are a blessing to every single person who has come into your life, and that said, you are a blessing to me for coming into MY life. You have this very "on" personality about you, ever so enthusiastic and unafraid to try new things to maximize and even go beyond your potential. I really admire you because you always put other people's needs before your own, like during Project Voyager, I was so awed by the fact that you were piling things on your back, carrying more stuff than the others, yet you were busy thinking of the rest and selflessly carried on motivating us with  a smile on your face. It's fantastic how you're  so devoted to sports, and it shows right through how committed you are to the things that you are passionate about. It's so funny how we can sit and talk about super nonsensical things and make THE EXACT SAME FACES that irritate people. Apart from that, I want to thank you again (a public thank you because you seriously deserve it) for being there for me when I was feeling my worst and giving me a shoulder to cry on. I look at you and I know that you're somebody that I can totally rely on when things take a turn for the worst and when I'm feeling extremely down. You have just simply made a huge impact on me and I really think that all the thank yous in the world don't do justice to all the amazing things that  you have done for everybody. You have a beautiful character that shines right though and it really shows on your face. Love you heaps and heaps <3

Zhi Hao- I don't even know if you'll read this but hello there :) When I first meet you, you struck me as a rather gentlemanly, extremely polite young man but somewhere along the way you kind of lost the formality I guess. I hope classes are going well for you and that you find it easy to work with people outside of RPPP. You seemed pretty happy when I saw you at the lecture the other day so I can assume that you're adjusting well. See you around :)


Zee- Ah, Zee. You were the first person in RPPP that  I found on twitter. Getting to know you was an immense pleasure, because I really have never in my life met anyone my age so determined to make other people's lives better. I was astoundingly awed and impressed by the fact that you so eagerly involve yourself in all these community service projects such as Mercy Relief, etc. The moment I  found that out about you, I wanted to be just like you because I was so impressed by the work you did, filled with sincerity. I love how you were so determined to jump back into sports despite the fact that you just injured yourself and that strong will of yours really amazed me. I really look forward to partnering with you in your upcoming project, because I do feel that I can learn a lot from you, so thank you for offering me that opportunity. I hope to be able to spend more time with you, because it really is fun hanging out with you. You're such an inspiration to me, I swear! Love you so so much <3

Just a slightly longer blogpost

I've decided that maybe, just maybe, I'll take to blogging a little more frequently. You do realize that my course is mass communications so most of the time I suppose we're expected to write and I think I have to start really honing my skills in writing and etc.

The official first day of school was havoc madness. Maddening. It started off raining, and I was wearing  a skirt and it started to absorb rain puddles like a mop, I had to miss one bus because of the crowd and I was so nervous because I was afraid of being late. Then I was playing Tetris on the bus because I was fretting inside and then I stressed myself out more because it felt like I was being judged. You never know, you could be sitting beside a Tetris Expert. You really never know.

 When I finally reached school I was hot, bothered and flustered  and I think I was overdressed or something sigh because it was as if people were looking at me, or maybe I'm just too full of myself but ok.

My faci for the current module was so motherly, I liked her a lot but I don't think I'll see her again. The day went ok-ish, only I wasn't used to the crowds because for the past two months my DPA mates and I practically had the whole classrooms and canteens to ourselves. So the immensely huge influx of people was a great big splash of cold water to the face and I didn't feel like eating blah blah blah. Going around school, I really couldn't stop thinking of all my dpa friends and all the places we used to hang out with together. The Reel Room holds especially fond memories- all held by the comfortable, unwashed folds of the sofa chairs, the foot printed glass tables, the over-used  pool equipment and the soft dim lights that make it near impossible to finish your work because it makes you so sleepy and relaxed. I miss all of that and looking back, I'm glad I treasured it the way I did knowing it will end soon enough whilst the memories stay.

Speaking of my dpa mates, I went down to watch their soccer match "illegally" played at the multi-purpose court. I only didn't see them for slightly more than a week yet I missed them so much. I always feel like I want to maximize my time with them and I AM NOT SORRY FOR SOUNDING LIKE A SOPPY EMOTIONAL YOUNG WOMAN.

On the second day of school I had breakfast with Becky and I must say it was really very nice to sit side by side out in the open, eating from our oil stained paper bags, looking at people and finally having that wonderful closure, that feeling of not needing to  say anything, simply basking in each other's familiar presence. Of course, we were nearly late for class haha. That day, I also had my first mind blank-out presenting to a group of people (my class)  and I just felt that whatever was coming out of my mouth was sheer repetitiveness and mindless rambling. I wanted to cry right there and then because I suddenly wanted my RPPP class so bad, I was too comfortable with them and the sudden realization that I wasn't in the same class as them locked the gears in my head. I finally got it over and done with but I felt immensely flustered. sigh


Third day was pretty disastrous. C o m p l e t e  mind block, some miscommunication, wrong factual information. I wanted to cry, I swear. I felt so darn pathetic. Like I was so used to my friends, I depended on them so much. The day got better when I finally met up with Mo later on and I cried seeing her because she was one of the people I missed the most. Only a few minutes earlier I felt like such a badass ( WAITING FOR SEBASTIAN AND JORDON TO GET IN THE LIFT BEFORE PRESSING ALL THE LIFT BUTTONS AND GOING OUT) and then  seeing Mo just opened up the floodgates and I couldn't stop crying. But it was great, catching up with her and some of the rest. Third day started bad, ended amazing <3

I'd say the first week of school (officially) was pretty stressful, there's a lot of emphasis on critical thinking and language and I feel somehow that I can't match up with the other more dynamic people in my class. But you know what, I like that pressurized feeling...as if I'm feeling something solid again, not a wandering, fleeting, mindless sensation

And lastly, to whoever reads this-I'm loud and fun when I'm comfortable with you, and I'm quiet when I'm comfortable with you, so go figure ;)

I just lost it, I swear.

 I have no where else to vent my frustrations (writing now seems tiring) and I suppose today, again, I wish to seek solace here. You may think that it's the most ridiculous thing to get so worked up over but I don't care.  My writing works, my essays mean so much to me and now the essays I typed out on my mother's laptop are gone. I took hours, days, writing and retyping every single one of them on her laptop and I just found out that they've been wiped out. There is nobody to blame in actual fact. I am just so upset and infuriated that everybody in the house thinks nothing of it, that it's no big deal. Writing is my life. When I'm not blogging, I'm tweeting, and when I'm not tweeting or trying to come up with witty Facebook statuses, I write.

Maybe you take photographs, maybe you draw and take pictures of your artwork. What would you do if you woke up and found all your work and photographs gone and nobody gave two shits about it because it's not their life, not their business? How would that feel?

If I want to blame myself, I have nothing to say. I just feel like a huge part of me is gone. I am not sorry if I sound over dramatic, because hey, you don't care.