I guess I'll make this the post of the month.

I have three days left 'til the end of my preparatory course and I cannot help but to feel a sense of foreboding sadness deep inside me. I'm sorry if I start to sound like a jiwa-ing emo, but I'm serious. The two months with my DPA mates has provided  me with  a sense of belonging, especially with my clique ( it's undeniable-you are sure to involve yourself in a clique one way or another) and knowing deep down that we'll not be as close as before when school  officially starts simply upsets me.

I remember on the very first day,heck no, the first week I was so very quiet and I found it a little hard to make friends. Sakinah was the first ever person I talked to but I expanded my horizons and started getting to know more people in the weeks to come. I also couldn't stop looking at Faiezah((girl crush alerT)) because she looked like some mixed White Chinese and was the prettiest girl I'd ever seen.
 ok let's swerve back.
 I suppose my initial so called "shyness" was due to the fact that I didn't see the need to make any new friends since just a few days back I had  joined the 2013 year 1 Mass Comm WhatsApp group (Taufiq as our apparent 'leader'). I felt that I didn't need to socialize, and that  I only wanted to focus on people in the same course as me. Arrogant, I know. Narrow-minded, yes yes I know. But it all changed. Everybody saw me as the horribly quiet person and I guess some didn't want to get to know me more thinking I'd be less than co-operative(In fact Shivanii described me as someone who'd only give one or two word replies to any questions). I think it was the third week of the course, Project Voyager when things turned around. I shan't elaborate, but people started referring to me as a silent killer and tbh I can't stop laughing thinking about it.  Btw Ganesh, Jared and Zakiah are amazing leaders.

It was only really during Project HeadSTArt when I really got myself in a clique and decided that I didn't have to rely on just one group  of friends. I opened up a bit more, I expressed myself a bit more and I felt really myself, not judged or anything. I'd known my DPA mates for weeks and I know that they'll be my support system. My only hope is that it'll last.

 The subsequent projects were short, small and admittedly boring but my friends made it all the more fun and tolerable. Our current and last project is the longest yet-15 days in total. We have three more days like I said and I dread the end of this program. Last three days and we can't even focus on hanging out more-we have to prepare for our scariest test yet-UT3. Also, I learnt the hard way that my daily grade will be affected by my group's presentation so yeah that kind of sucks lol. Oh well, at least we all have a taste of what life in RP is all about and I can't say I hate it. Gotta be grateful, because RP gave me a chance.

I just really really don't want RPPP to end. i've met all these different kinds of people with different backgrounds. In fact, I've never met people more positive and motivated. After knowing a bit more about some of them, I found out that the happiest people in this course are the ones with the darkest, saddest backgrounds. Who else should I thank besides Allah, for showing  me and allowing me to meet people like these in order for me to learn from them? These people are amazing. I hope we remain friends.


(Dedicated to Rebecca, Zakiah, Mo, Faiezah and Zee)